Zone terapi og sex

Jeg ligger på sofaen op af H og nyder den nærhed der er imellem os, H slukker for fjernsynet og beder mig sætte mig hen i den anden ende af sofaen jeg kikker spørgende på ham men får ikke noget svar, jeg gør som H siger og får så besked på at lægge mig ned, H tager min ene fod og går i gang med zone terapi jeg er ikke så meget for fødder heller ikke mine egne, de har en speciel lugt selv om de er nyvasket og så er de grimme, det er nogle underlig plader at rende rundt med, men H syntes at mine størrelse 36 er pæne lige frem smukke så det er da godt at det er en af os der syntes det, H trykker og gnider på min fod og opdager en kugle, hmm siger han og jeg løfter hovedet fra puden og kikker spørgende og lidt skræmt på H, hmm siger H igen og trykker blidt det gør ondt men det underlige er at jeg også bliver liderlig H smiler og finder andre punkter på mine fødder som han gnider på og som også giver mig lyst til sex, verden forsvinder og jeg nyder den nærhed der er imellem os og lysten som jeg kan mærke i min krop, jeg forsvinder ind i en sub tilstand af nydelse.
Kuglen i min fod den forsvandt efter H og jeg havde haft sex og jeg havde fået nogle orgasme det er underligt at det kan mærkes på ens fod om man mangler sex og at min livmoder og æggestokke sidder i min fod.
Det underlige er at jeg ikke er til fødder og det mener jeg stadig selv om jeg godt kan huske dengang hvor H havde gjort mig så sex gal at jeg endte med at måtte gnide min fisse op af H's hæl for at få min orgasme ellers fik jeg ingen og nej jeg er ikke stædig jeg har bare mine egne meninger.

Submissive Owner’s Manual

Jeg fandt Submissive Owner's Manual  på nettet og da det skrevende har det med at forsvinde så tog jeg og satte den ind på min blok.

I need to feel safe. Before I can begin to open my submissive nature to You I need to feel safe and have reason to trust You. To let down my walls and give You control of my will may take time and testing before I feel safe enough to permit either of us to go beyond the initial stages of our relationship. Even after I’ve given myself to You fully, I need to be reminded I am safe with You. I may like to feel the thrill and excitement of fear and the unknown, but I need to be sure no matter how You stimulate those emotions during an intense scene or situation, I will remain safe in Your care.
I need to know You accept me for all I am. I will be many things to You as our relationship grows and I need to know You accept me as a person during each transition along the way. I need to know You accept me as a friend, lover, companion, and Your submissive but also accept me as parent, child, employee, community member or other roles I fill in my obligations to family or society.
I need to have clearly defined limits. I need to know exactly what You expect of me and know that You also understand my limits. In some ways I am like a child that needs a fence around my play area so I know how far I can go and feel secure inside those limits. I need You to reinforce those fences by correcting me when I try to climb them without Your approval.
I need You to be consistent. I need to know You mean what You say and that today’s rules will apply to tomorrow’s behavior. Nothing confuses me more than giving me mixed signals by allowing me to break rules that You’ve given me. From time to time I may test You to see if You are capable of accepting control of my life by consistently bringing me back to the path You’ve chosen for me. It’s not done to try Your patience but is my way of finding reassurance You are paying attention to my progress. Very often it’s not done consciously and I promise I’ll not use it as a method for provoking Your negative responses.
I need to expand my limits. I need to grow and to be challenged. Left on my own, I’ll become bored or stagnate within the boundaries I accepted in the beginning. I need to be pushed, but never shoved, to go beyond the places I’ve been. I may drag my feet and pout at times, or sit down and refuse to move because I’m unsure and need Your guidance in overcoming my obstacles. I depend on You for strength and encouragement to get beyond them.
I need You to teach me. I need to learn and it is You who are my teacher. My mind is hungry for new things and learning helps me to become all that I can be. This may require You to continue to learn new things in order to keep me challenged. Together we can grow to the fullness of the gifts we have and deepen the diversity we share.
I need goals. Part of my make-up as a submissive makes me very goal-oriented. I need them to measure my progress and need You to provide them for me. Take time to explain those goals in ways I can comprehend Your plans concerning my growth as Your submissive. Without Your direction I quickly become lost so I’ll look to You frequently to provide a purpose and aim as I continue in my development as a submissive.
I need to be corrected. I need You to correct me when I make mistakes. Without Your correction I will develop bad habits that can be very difficult to break and do great damage to our relationship and to us as individuals. Without Your correction, I may never know I’ve made a mistake. Allowing me to continue unchecked will only cause me to fail both of us in the end. I admire firmness in Your correction and feel secure in knowing that You will never be afraid to take steps needed in keeping me focused on the goals You’ve set for me.
I need You to be my role-model. I look up to You and try to follow in Your footsteps. If You fail to live up to a standard, I will follow You into failure, often without You noticing until it is too late. I learn quickly by the examples You provide for me and often base my reactions and behaviors on my observations of You in similar situations. I will blindly pattern myself in Your image so be aware that my eyes will always be on You as face Your own challenges and daily activities.
I need Your approval and reassurance. I need to know when You approve of me or what I’ve done and to know I belong to You even if I fall short of my goals. I sometimes confuse approval with disapproval when You do not provide positive reinforcement when You are pleased by my actions. I will constantly be seeking Your approval when I’m unsure of myself and may need to rely deeply on Your support and reassurance when I’m confused about a situation or apprehensive about a new challenge.
I need to be able to express myself. I have a need to express both good and bad things to You but it may be difficult for me to put the negative things into words. I fear Your rejection and hate disappointing You, so I may need a little space and time to voice all the things I need to say. You can help me by reassuring me that my feelings are valid, even if they aren’t something You find pleasure in hearing. There may be times when I’m upset or angry with You but without freedom to express those feelings there can be only festering resentment or misunderstanding. Guide me in ways that I can learn to speak my heart without breaking it or Yours.
I need to learn from my mistakes. I need to experience things that may be painful in order to learn successfully. I know Your protective nature will struggle with allowing me to be hurt but I need to learn the consequences of what I’ve done and to experience the feelings that go along with making mistakes. I will need Your comfort once I’ve faced my failure but will sometimes feel unworthy of asking or unable to voice my disappointment in failing. Allow me to sort out my feelings before wiping away my tears.
I need forgiveness when I fail You. Nothing hurts me more than to know I’ve failed or displeased You and I need to be forgiven once I’ve made amends. It is very hard for me to forgive myself for a wrong-doing and I may need Your help in getting beyond the feelings of remorse I am carrying. I may even need to be punished, if my wrong-doing was traumatic enough, in order to feel closure and accept forgiveness. I depend on You to make that determination for me and need Your help in making an atonement that is acceptable to You.
I need to feel I contribute. I have a deep-set need to give and must have outlets for this need. My basic nature is to give of myself and You will be the primary recipient of my gifts. Allow me to contribute to our relationship and our life together. To do less will leave me unfulfilled and unneeded, a fate worse than death for me. Provide me with ways to contribute things to others, also. I may need to give of myself to those I hold dear but You will always receive the best I have to offer.
I need to enjoy successes. Without experiencing and enjoying my successes I may give up my fight to be all You desire for me. Allow me the pleasure of savoring the taste of victory when I overcome an obstacle or if You find pride in my attempts. All of my successes belong to You and I need to share their rewards with You. I don’t expect You to spoil me with grand displays for little victories, but when I’ve reached beyond the limits of my past attempts, please don’t deny me the sweet feelings of knowing I’ve achieved a goal You’ve set.
I need to share with You. Sharing with You is a compelling need and one of the cornerstones of my submissive nature. This includes the emotional and spiritual aspects of my being as well as the physical body I inhabit. It may be difficult for me to give You access to the deeper levels of my emotions and feelings but those are the things I need to share the most. I’ll depend on You to direct me in ways I can achieve total openness with You. I also need to share in the things You are. Trust me enough to share in Your fears, failures and struggles. I’ll never see You as weak or incapable because You have shown confidence in me by giving part of Yourself in trust.
I need to feel loved, respected, and protected in Your ownership. No matter how well I’ve done or how miserably I’ve failed, I need to know I’m still loved and protected by You. Nothing will prevent me from trying new things like fear of losing Your respect and love. By the reverse, nothing will encourage me to expand my limits and grow to be all I am capable of being more than knowing You will be there to protect me from harm and will love me even if I fall short of the target. I need to be loved and to love You in return. I can’t survive without it.

H og næbdyret (Dragon’s Tongue)

Nærvær, hygge og samhørighed, følelser af glæde og fornyet energi snakke om alt mellem himmel og jord der er så meget som giver os glæden, hos mig blev jeg fyldt op af glade følelser i aftes da H brugte mig til at prøve det nye hjemmelavede næbdyr jeg peb da det første slag ramte mig eller det vil sige tre sekunder efter for chokket over hvor hårdt den ramte kom helt bag på mig så da jeg gav mig blev jeg lige nusset lidt og så faldt slagene igen men nu lige efter hinanden jeg formåede at tage dem lidt ind og arbejde med smerten men helt formåede jeg det ikke for den gør godt nok nas på en kold numse selv om den ikke vedblev med at være kold gjorde den stadig nas som en skærende smerte men H sparede nu heller ikke på sine kræfter, jeg nød at blive brugt jeg nød at H kunne bruge mig, jeg nød at give følelserne frit løb jeg nød at jeg kunne mærke H’s dominans og at jeg kunne give et pib uden at han stoppede af den grund, at han først strøg mig blidt over ballerne når jeg ikke formåede at arbejde med smerten for så at forsætte igen når min vejrtrækning var blevet normal, bagefter kom jeg i H’s arme ikke fordi jeg græd men behovet for ømhed var der hos os begge pludselig holdt H mig og hans fingre fandt min våde fisse jeg kunne ikke mærke at jeg havde lyst men det kunne fissen åbenbart for kort efter kom jeg i en stor sprøjte orgasme så gulvet sejlede.

Bagefter sagde H at jeg havde fået nogle pæne striber jeg var stolt over mine striber og spurgte igen H lidt efter om de mon stadig var der og det var de H så mine striber flere gange den aften

Senere imens stormen rasede uden for lå jeg i min seng og nød de varme følelser der rørte på sig inden i mig, følelser som jeg ikke har mærket længe følelsen af at tilhøre.